Thursday, February 18, 2010

I keep hoping....

.... that I will feel better and be able to get back to my life. I want to do fun crafts, play games with my boys, open the fridge and not dry heave, I want to feel well enough to plant my garden, I want to spend more of my time out of bed instead of in my bed, I want to clean my house, I want to have the energy to do my hair, I really want to go running, I want to serve in my church calling completely, and I really wish I could eat food (any type of food and not be limited to toast, applesauce, and apples). BUT - I know this won't last for ever and maybe, just maybe, I will feel less like a green Martian and more like me before this baby joins our family near the end of August.

Okay, I'm done, no more complaining!!! Can I confess that I have resulted to smelling a package of baby diapers just to keep me going. Something about that clean, baby powder smell that reminds me that it will be all worth it!!!!

4 comments:

Elaine said...

I've learned that sometimes we have to do what we have to do....even if we don't want to. Yeah..it sucks sometimes lol! And it took me a long while to acknowledge it too!

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Anonymous said...

Oh girlfriend I wish I could take it away for you if just for a day!!!

Be patient and keep smelling those diapers!! :)

Bethanne said...

It's a long pregnancy of guilt, my dear. There is a time and season for everything, don't forget, and don't let it overwhelm you. Easier said than done, I know...

And your boys have short term memories and are extremely buoyant! So you might remember how you "neglected" them, but they'll soon forget...You know my personal campaign: hate the pregnancy, love the baby! hahaha. Okay, kind of just kidding.

Hang in there. I know it won't be easier for a while, but know that we're thinking and praying for you and the baby (and the fam). Once that little one enters your arms, and you fall in love all over again, you'll remember why this suffering is all worth it...until then: accept help if offered. Keep thinking of those baby names. Hug your big boys (and teach them to fix their own meals. hahaha). And thank your sweet husband, cause I'm sure he is helping tons.

Love you. Hugs and kisses. PS - If you were in Texas, I'd help you as much as I could!

Jenni said...

Feeling guilty that you have such a rough go and I don't. :(
Thinking of you though and wishing it to fly by for you.

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